survival

sometimes i feel more connected to the person singing through my speakers than i do with the people i see and talk to everyday. how did i get this way? and is it supposed to be like this? to care more about disappointing the one you don't know than the ones you do. they'll never know your life, but you have a drive to be true to the words and the feelings and the meaning. a desire to be there for them like they've been there for you and if they ever happened to know you, to be able to say yes it was you who did the good and right thing that kept me sane and okay through all of the hurt and joyful through all of the happiness.