it's friday, i'm not in love

On a Friday afternoon my heart was broken and by midnight I was hitting the bottle. I never thought that I would be this person but when things happen in your life its hard to quit. Everything soon after turns into a haze and I can’t believe the people passing by me kissing like it doesn’t mean anything – I remember when a kiss meant nothing. All I know now is your kiss meant everything. And all my friends are gone and I’m standing here alone trying to get a full cup from the keg – oh how these nights and days will pass me by and I won’t even remember why I ever cried, and that’s just what I wanted… or was it? I’ll keep on dancing with all these acquaintances, I hope that at some point a friendly face will show but I know how small that chance is. Where did you go and why did you leave? What I did I do to make you not like me? We all struggle with these insecurities and I know that I accept everyone so why can’t you just accept me? Am I doing something so wrong..maybe it’s just a matter of chemistry and something I can’t fix. I’ll leave it alone but I know I won’t get anywhere doing this. Save me from this drunken mess of cameras and mirrors and foam in cups and disgusting mouths that want to spout words at me that truly mean nothing. I miss the meaning that we once had. There’s meaning in nothing around me, and I guess that’s the way I wanted it to be..but not really. Save me. save me.